about my parents

I came from an ordinary family. You know, it’s nothing special, it’s ok.

My parents were from poor, agricultural family. M grandparents didn’t have the opportunity to study. In my opinion the socialism’s one good consequence was the clever kids of the poor families could study in university. So, that’s why my dad could become a mathematician and my mum studied agriculture. (In that time of socialism, agricultural was a dynamic field of the Hungarian economic industry.)

I am the only child of my parents. I wasn’t the first embryo of my mum. She had 3 miscarriages before me.

 My mum was 31 and my dad was 30 years old, when I was born. In primary school, my classmates said my parents are old because their parents were younger than 8-10 years. Now, it became common in Hungary as well, to have the first child over the age 30.

As an only child wasn’t lonely, because we lived in the same house with my dad’s younger brothers` family. I could play every day with my cousin, who was older than me with 1 year.

I felt myself insecure when I was a child, because my parents had an argument every day. Both of them wanted to wear the trousers and they had several conflict.

I love my mum but I can’t live with her. She is moody, when she is in a bad mood, she wants me to be in the same mood, and she starts making mountains out of a molehill.
She always wants to tell me what should I do, and don’t let me make mistakes. Thank you for her she forced me to study. I was lazy in all my life and without her I couldn’t get into the university. Sometimes I felt she wasn’t interested in my personality, she was just interested in my school grades.
 By the way I didn’t really want to get into university. I wanted to stay in London, and after I wanted to stay in Berlin or in Vienna to improve my English and German. She wouldn’t accept me without proper higher education. So, coming to London was my runaway from going to university, I don’t really want to do.

My dad is so lovely but he is a reserved person. Sometimes he opened his mind to me, (usually late night) and we were talking for hours about his past and his feelings. He has a really good sense of humour and really likes children. His biggest sadness in his life he has just 1 daughter.

I don`t want to write more, because I feel I will cry, so that’s all.